From negative to positive

Tässä on nyt sattunut kaikenlaista. On ollut kaikenlaista myllerrystä. Liiallista juhlintaa. Kadoksissa oloa. Sekoamis pisteessä olemista. Valintojen tekemistä. Mutta kaikesta on selvitty.
 Eräs henkilö sanoi minulle, että pitää olla spontaani ja tehdä hulluuksia. Minä yhdyn samaan, mutta sitäkin vain tiettyyn pisteeseen asti. Ja pitää yrtittää ajatella, että mitä tulevaisuuden minä ajattelisi tästä ja mitkä seikat vaikuttavat päätöksen tekoon. Välillä tuntuukin mahtavalta ajatella, että jättäisi kaiken vain taakseen ja matkustaisi kauas pois. Mutta ketä siellä olisi? Ei perhettä, eikä tuttuja. Toki, aina löytää uusia ihmisiä, mutta ei se ole sama asia.

Toki kaiken negatiivisen jälkeen on ollut paljon positiivista. Iskän synttäreiden viettoa, Linnamäellä käynti, kavereiden näkemistä, leffassa käyntiä ja luonnossa kuljeskelua. Tästä on hyvä jatkaa. 

Do I enjoy life too much?

What a stupid thing that might sound. How could somebody enjoy life too much? We have to enjoy living. We have to be happy.
 Of course. But the thing is now when I`m working I think I can buy whatever I want. All those clothes, all those foods and everything. I think I have the right to do so because I`m working hard.  
 I`m not thinking much about those workers who have to make those clothes in bad conditions. I could  buy my stuff from somewhere where I know everything is alright. But I want to live my life the "easy" way and of course that`s a lot cheaper as well. Sometimes when I think about that I actually disgust myself. How did I became like this? I guess it is this culture I`m living in. But it does`t give me any right. I know that.
 Maybe after yesterday`s sale shopping I can promise try to buy rest of my summer clothes from 2nd hand shops. Anyways it`s more fun and you can find more unique clothes!

So I was supposed to go to this spiritual journey thing but I ended up drinking couple drinks and buy a couple cool things from sales. Maybe my soul was`t ready for it. So I made my soul happy with good company and good foods. Almost same? Ehh... Maybe the thoughts of what I have done already awakened my soul so this is a good start. 

Yesterday was for me like a happy Sunday because I had a day off work. I met a really good friend and I got to enjoy the sun. I just love days like this. Even a little sun burn does`t get my mood down. I hope you had a great time too! Take care and put on some suncream and remember to drink enough water! 

Tired me after long day. Ps. My ema`s old shirt. (Ema is Estonian and means mom..)

(I feel like I`m in new`s studio or something. Starting with the hard topic and ending up with these chill things. At least in Finland when you watch news from tv, it`s like that..)

Girrrl, you gotta get out.

Do you know the feeling when you are so tired that all you want to do is just to lay in the bed the whole day? Well I know. And it was my feeling yesterday. And what makes it even worse that outside is perfect weather. And in Finland you must respect that and get out because you can`t be sure when is the next time when sun is shining so warmly. 

But after "a little" pressure I got out of the house. And I`m so glad that I did. I ended up celebrating a b-day at park and eating cake, so what would be more perfect at sunny day like that? I got to know new people and I just love that. 

 After having a great time at park I was filled with positive energy and I was just jumping around the train station like a crazy kid. Somehow I just had got so much energy. So I made my boyfriend to come with me to this huge swing. And it was so much fun. (Maybe you saw that on my snapchat: joqulie). Hahah. (The quality of those videos isn`t good enough to put here.. :/)

 We were fooling around and I picked up some flowers. Hippie mood on. Nature loving up and feeling so free, without any thought of stress. 

 So what this day reminded me was that you have to do things, go out because we are young now and great things might happen. The joy is in little things. But we have to go after those little things. 

So who?

"Young soul. Dancing all nights. Sometimes too materialist. Sometimes too tree hugging hippie. Vegetarian. Wants to become vegan. Pizza and ice cream lover. Writes shitty stories. Takes cool pictures. Loves to study about universe. One year off school. Doesn`t know yet where she belongs. Works her ass off. Wants to travel the world. Deep conversations. Equality. Coffee and tea drinker. Aquarius."

Here we go with my new blog. So new chance to get a peek in to my life. ;)